The place is Spain and the year is 1930, just before the Civil War. The
family, the house of Quevedo: Dr. Calixto, his wife, Dona Maria, and
their three children, Luis, Carmen, and Teresa, the lovely Spanish
rose, and pure lily whose full name is Maria Teresa Josefina Justina
Gonzalez-Quevedo, and she has been honored by the Catholic Church with
the title of Venerable. One can see the character of the future Saint,
affectionately known as Teresita, in one particular incident. It seemed
that a young acquaintance confided to her that she was thinking of
becoming a religious, with the stipulation, however, that she would
first enjoy herself when she was young, and then when youth had
disappeared, she would then seek admission into a convent so as to
assure her eternal salvation. Horrified, Teresita responded, "What an
egotist you are! . . . After you've given the best of yourself to the
world! Jesus has good taste, you know, and He wants youth with all its
joys and its dreams." Teresita did not believe in giving Our Lord
leftovers. Even at ten years of age at the academy's retreat for girls,
she wrote, "I have decided to become a Saint." It was the "I decided"
part that made Teresita what she was. She single-heartedly focused on
becoming sanctified and never turned back. Born on Holy Saturday, in
Madrid, April 14, 1930, Maria Teresa was the daughter of Calixto
Quevedo, a prominent physician, known for his skill in healing and for
his charity. Her educated mother was the granddaughter of the Admiral
Luis Cadarso le Y Rey, who died during a battle in 1898, aboard the
Queen Cristina.
During the Catholic persecution of the turbulent Spanish Civil War,
Spain witnessed six members of the Quevedo family who gave their lives
for their Faith. Teresita's lineage was replete with souls of skill,
intelligence, and strength, and even Martyrs.
Despite the virtuous lineage, however, Teresita was not perfect at
first. She could not be crossed without a reaction, and many times her
will was at variance with those around her and often her hot temper got
her into trouble. Yet, she possessed a disarming smile which made
her the favorite anyway. Still, it took time to tame her unruly will,
her stubbornness, which can be be guided the right way.
Saints were stubborn.
VIEW VENERABLE TERESITA'S IMAGE PLAIN
Teresita began her spiritual life in an atmosphere that breathed the
Catholic Faith in all its beauty and joy. Lovely representations of our
holy Faith by way of statues and pictures were found tastefully placed
throughout the house. Every evening the family gathered for the Rosary
before a beautiful wood-carved statue of the Immaculate Conception. Our
Lady had revealed to Saint Dominic that "the Rosary shall make virtue
and good works flourish," and how true it was for this family. This
love of Our Lady's chaplet became Teresita's daily practice from the
age of five. She taught her nurse and the cook to say it, as well as
her friends at school. When she was at the academy, she made it a
practice to say the Sorrowful Mysteries every day before the Blessed
Sacrament. Another promise to Saint Dominic was that "those who
propagate my Rosary shall obtain aid in all their necessities." How
truly Teresita experienced this assistance and guidance of the Mother
of God throughout her life.
The
Quevedo parents
not only encouraged the outward devotions of their
Faith, they truly lived their Faith. The children were very young when
both parents taught their children catechism and prayers. Calixto
especially delighted in teaching Teresita, whom he instructed to begin
her day with this prayer: "O sweet Virgin Mary, my Mother, I offer
myself today completely to thee. I beg thee to give my body, eyes,
ears, and tongue, my heart and soul to Jesus. I am all thine, holy
Mother of God. Watch over me!" "from early childhood, when Papa taught
me to make the Morning Offering, it was always a prayer of holocaust to
Our Lady."
-----Total Consecration.
The family lived across from Madrid's Royal Palace until Maria Teresa
was seven years old. When the Civil War broke out, blood flowed in the
streets of Catholic Spain at the hands of the Communists. It was then
that her father thought it best to move his family north where they had
a second home; because Calixto was a prominent physician he had to live
in hiding, apart from his family. Devout Catholics were persecuted and
slaughtered: 7000 priests, 13 bishops, and thousands upon thousands of
laymen and women murdered in just three years! The persecution claimed
six members of Calixto's family, three of his own brothers, among the
many who paid with their lives for their love of Christ the King and
His holy Church.
The family was reunited after 16 months. The northern home was in a
locale where there were street urchins and the poor. At first Teresita
was repulsed by this unfamiliar sight but her father corrected this
fault when he told her that these little children were poorer than even
Baby Jesus and most likely prayer to him just as she did. Teresita
changed and soon invited them home and gave them treats and taught them
etiquette; even more, she collected toys and clothing for them.
Because of the social rest Teresita was not able to receive formal
training for her First Holy Communion so her uncle, Fr. Antonio
Quevedo, S.J., gave permission for home instruction. Calixto told her
and her cousin Oscar about the Saints and Martyrs who gave their lives
for Jesus, stories that even more real to them since they had such
Martyrs in their own family. The day of her First Holy Communion
------July
29, 1937
------marked
a transition in her life: she became noticeably more humble, she began
to take correction better, and she never intentionally missed going to
daily Mass. She later revealed that it was receiving Jesus for the
first time that she chose Our Lady as her sole confidante as from that
day on He and His Mother were firmly linked as a spiritual chain in
Teresita's soul.
A few years passed and under the leadership of Spain's Franco life
resumed its normal course. In 1939 the family moved back to Madrid
where she received the Sacrament of Confirmation, November 9. Now she
desired to be a Martyr if that was what Our Lord willed. She and her
sister were students at Mount Carmel Academy and her father's sister,
also named Teresa, was the Prefect of Discipline there. When she was
ten she made a retreat at which time she wrote: "I have decided to
become a Saint."
La Madrecita,
as she called Our Lady, became everything to her and her fellow
students noted changes in her: she became more silent, especially
during the month of May, even more generous and self-sacrificing. At
thirteen she strengthened her resolve by accepting the Sister's
invitation to join the Sodality of Our Lady as a slave according to the
spirit of Saint Louis de Montfort. Each student received a medal and
chose a motto to be inscribed on it. Teresita's was "Mother, grant that
everyone who looks at me may see You."
As she approached young womanhood, she became a puzzle to others
because while vivacious and social she was somehow aloof. They did not
know about an event that occurred on the feast of Our Lady's Immaculate
Conception, December 8, when Teresita was fifteen. She had written on a
holy card on that day, "Most Holy Mother, today I have solemnly
promised to live holy and chaste forever. My only desire is to give
You, Jesus and Mary, pure pleasure." She also wrote that her only
desire was to become holy in order to please God and her beautiful
Mother Mary. "I will do whatever is necessary to become holy quickly,"
she had confided to her favorite aunt, Mother Anita, sister of Dr.
Quevedo who lived in Puerto Rico. "Teresita did not mean quickly in the
usual sense of the word. What she meant was that she wanted every fiber
of her being to work intensely and incessantly on the one project of
her life
-----her sanctity," related Mother Anita.
Teresita's "quickness" of character even permeated her spiritual life.
Teresita was involved in catechesis and was the sole instructor of a
very poor boy whom she prepared for First Holy Communion. She
painstakingly gave him most careful guidance, especially when she
learned that he was from a very sad family situation; his mother was a
spiritualist. Teresita never failed to pray and sacrifice for him, and
to bring him toys and candy. Her love for souls carried her interests
to the Jesuit missions in Alaska, and by means of correspondence, she
even adopted a little Alaskan girl, Maria Kluinalpk, as a goddaughter.
Her friend used to say, "In Teresita's face there was the hope of
conquering the world for Christ!" Teresita's world, however, was not a
selfish world. She was truly a member of the Church Militant, and felt
the growing needs of the Mystical Body of Christ.
Senior year
posed a
challenge to her. She spoke of her determination to
win a special award that was called the Badge of Honor. She felt it
would be a disgrace to graduate without having achieved this for Our
Lady. When the distribution of awards was posted for the trimester, to
her great joy, Teresita saw her name beside the coveted award. She
strove to make everything in that senior year redound to her
Madrecita'shonor.
The feast of the Presentation of the Blessed Virgin, November
21, is very special to the Academy of Our Lady of Mount Carmel. Mother
Teresa had given the usual Sodality lecture, encouraging the girls to
assist most devoutly at the upcoming procession in honor of Our Lady.
The same talk was given every year to the girls. The same hymns were
sung. The same externals that Teresita had followed for years on this
feast day she again followed. But something was not the same. After the
festivities, observant Mother Teresa called her niece into her office,
for she had seen Teresita's copious tears throughout the procession.
They were not the typical senior's sentimental tears of "It's my last
time doing this" tears. No. She knew her niece too well. It was here in
Mother Teresa's office that Teresita voiced her determination to become
a religious as a Carmelite Sister of Charity, and in fact before the
close of the school year, in the month of February. Her aunt objected
to her being only seventeen, too young to embrace religious life, but
her aunt relented when Father Muzquiz had already approved. Her secret,
she decided, would not be told to her family until the day after the
Epiphany, on January 7, so that she would not disturb their Christmas.
She had asked Mother Teresa not to tell her parents before she did and
requested extra time to work on her embroidery for her mother before
she entered. The days flew by and she still held the secret deep in her
heart. But one day after thoroughly enjoying recreation time, Teresita
and a friend were in the rest room exchanging some chitchat as they
prepared for class. Teresita told her that this would be her last
semester at school because she was going to enter the novitiate. Her
friend reacted instantly with tears telling her that she couldn't leave
because she couldn't imagine life at school without her. Teresita
calmed her and asked for her prayers because she would soon have to
tell her family and that it was going to be very difficult. Teresita
stated that the only pain she would feel would be that of parting from
them and having to give up her Sodality medal. Teresita took out her
medal on its blue satin ribbon and put it over her friend's head,
telling her to keep her dearest possession for her. She knew that God
calls one to leave those whom one loves in order to find a Higher Love.
The Order which the budding Saint entered was The Institute of the
Carmelite Sisters of Charity and was founded by Saint Joaquina de
Vednma, canonized on April 12, 1959, by Pope John XXIII. In 1816, when
Joaquina was thirty-three years old, she received a vision of Our Lord,
foretelling the imminent death of her husband and Our Lord's desire for
her to found a new order called the Carmelite Sisters of Charity. The
Institute's primary goal is the sanctification of its members by works
such as orphanages, schools, and hospitals. Postulants are only
received at certain times of the year. February 23 was the day on which
Teresita chose to enter.
Teresita's friend expressed her surprise at the beautiful outfit she
wore to Vespers, the evening before her entrance. She responded, "A
religious vocation does not spell gloom, untidiness, or bad taste.
Don't you think God loves beautiful things? Isn't Our Blessed Lady
called the Lily among lilies? I have always liked to dress well but
this will end when I enter the convent. I will leave the world on the
novitiate doorstep because I want to become a Saint. No half measures
for me!" Teresita prayed for snow on her entrance day, as her
patroness, Saint Therese, as a sign of predilection. Sure enough, her
prayers were also answered and the convent grounds were covered with a
glistening white mantle, and added to the festivities of the day.
Postulancy is the initial period in religious life wherein the
candidate "knocks" [from the Latin verb "postulare"] on the door of the
Order, seeking entrance. The new postulant, now addressed as Sister
Maria Teresa, began her six-month preparatory period in which she was
introduced to the customs and rules of the Institute. The newcomers
were given much assistance by a postulant directress, novice mistress,
as well as two senior novices assigned as angels to each postulant. The
two angels and postulant spend much time together at recreation. The
angels assist the directress in smoothing the transition from the
"world" to the postulancy, which can sometimes be difficult. Two fellow
postulants had been classmates with her at the academy and knew that
keeping silence did not come easily to Teresita, nor did stopping
recreation at the sound of the study bell. When asked how she managed
to overcome herself in that regard, Sister Maria Teresa quoted the
words from their first spiritual lecture, "The religious is vain who
does not guard his tongue." She explained that she was now guarding
hers with five keys: M-A-R-I-A. Far from perfect, she accepted
correction when her weaknesses were brought to her attention, such as
being too spontaneous or too dramatic when she spoke. She was also told
that she moved too quickly, even during work, showing her impatience.
"I entrust my progress to you, Mother Mary, do not let me give bad
example by repeating these faults," she wrote in her diary. However,
Sister Maria Teresa was determined to aim for perfection, and
conquering these little things would lead her on to bigger things. That
Teresita "stubbornness" was kicking in.
Six
months flew by and the time for her novitiate arrived. On the feast
of Saints Peter and Paul, June 29, Mother Carmen received the five
postulants in the chapter room where each, on her knees, had to ask for
the Holy Habit. This simple tradition left each postulant wondering,
for there was no response given. They were told that the answer would
be given on the basis of the results of their first retreat. Father
Muzquiz preached the Ignatian retreat, a very fruitful one for Sister
Maria Teresa. She wrote in her diary, "Conditions for making a good
retreat: 1. Absolute silence . . . Recollection.
2. Abandonment to Mary.
3. Generous giving of self to the Divine
Retreat Master.
My dearest Mother, you know the desires I have to
fulfill these points. Let Jesus ask of me whatever He wishes. I give
Him my all. I am in the world only to love and serve His Heavenly
Father. No longer do I desire anything for myself, either health or
sickness, honor or dishonor, a long or a short life. Nothing, my dear
Mother, but God alone."
She also wrote about sin and sinners. "As Religious we must prevent
them (sinners) from being condemned
to Hell. With my prayers I hope to save many, but grant, my Lord, that
no one be lost through my neglect."
The month of May, 1949 found Sister Maria Teresa with a bad cold and
persistent cough, and she offered this little trifle to her
Madrecita
as a bouquet. Because she did not seem to be getting better, the doctor
was called and he diagnosed her illness as severe bronchitis; another
doctor, a specialist thought it might be developing into pleurisy, but
eventually her health returned and she completed her first year as a
novice. She said: "To become a Saint one must take two definite steps:
one toward abandonment, another toward confidence. In other words, one
must break all attachments, no matter how holy, and place her soul in
Mary's hands, confident that she will offer it to Christ in a manner
worthy of Him. Since God will not refuse His Mother anything, He will
accept her offering and fashion the soul after His, which means that it
will 'become perfect as our Heavenly Father is perfect'." Her wisdom
was far beyond her years and came from a deep union with Our Lady.
In Advent, 1949, there was much excitement about the upcoming Holy Year
preparations. The dogma of Our Lady's Assumption into Heaven was to be
proclaimed by the Holy Father Pius XII before the end of the Holy Year.
While the lively conversation continued, Sister Maria Teresa
mysteriously stated that she was sure that Our Lady was going to grant
her a very unique privilege. Of course this brought on a myriad of
questions from the room full of Sisters during their recreation. She
seemed to stop short and hold back on revealing more. But, finally the
novices prevailed upon her. "Since there will be a new dogma in honor
of Our Lady's prerogatives proclaimed this year, there are certain
privileges bound to be extended by Our Lady to little exiles here on
earth. Something tells me that one of those privileges will be mine."
Then came the startling statement: "Sisters, I believe I am going to
celebrate the new dogma in Heaven." Various reactions ensued: some
laughed, some protested, but not one person took her seriously. Sister
Maria Teresa remained steadfast. " . . . everyone of you will
probable sing my requiem before the close of 1950. I know I shall be
with my Mother on her glorious day." Only Mother Carmen seemed to
believe her, but laughed it off, saying, "Before you make reservations
for that flight to Heaven, my dear little Sister, there is a retreat
debt to be settled with Our Lord." Teresita and another novice had been
too weak to make the ten-day July retreat with the community and
arrangements were made for the two
palomitas
(little doves), as Mother
Carmen called the novices, to make it at a later time in September.
Sister Maria Teresa made the private retreat with great fervor. "I am
beginning this retreat resolved to make a good one because I need it. I
am prepared to be completely generous with God . . . I have given
myself to
God unreservedly. I expect nothing from Him in return except the
privilege of being united with my Mother Mary in Him." The retreat time
flew quickly by.
A few weeks later, January 18, Sister Maria Teresa admitted to Mother
Carmen that she had been suffering from a very bad headache. At that
time some of the novices were sick with the flu, and assuming it was
just one more case, Mother was not too concerned. After a day in the
infirmary, Sister resumed her duties. But around five o'clock after
her last class, she asked one of the other novices to put her books
back for her in the novitiate because she felt very sick. She was
again sent to the infirmary. The next morning Mother Carmen called her
brother and told him that his daughter was quite ill with severe
headache and fever. Dr. Quevedo arrived within the hour.
Calixto
teased his daughter for visiting the infirmary again. He
examined her and then visited briefly with her. His jovial exterior hid
his true feelings. He then left her and spoke with Mother Carmen
outside in the hallway, giving his diagnosis. He asked that the
community doctor be called for a second opinion. Dr. Lozano was called
in
and after the laboratory tests came back both doctors agreed that
Teresita had tuberculous meningitis. This illness would be agonizingly
painful, most probably fatal, and would most likely cause her to lose
her mental faculties. Teresita's father told Mother Carmen that he
understood that his daughter would have to leave, saying that she would
die within a few months no matter where she was. Mother Carmen pleaded
with her brother not to take her from the infirmary, for the community
felt that her presence had brought blessings and that it would be a
privilege for them to care for her throughout the time that would
remain to her until God would call her. It was a very difficult moment
for Calixto. He knew that it would be much happier for Teresita to die
in God's house. He agreed to let her stay. He went in to give the news
to his daughter.
With
tender words, he explained to his daughter that she was seriously
ill and gently told her that she should prepare for Extreme Unction
realizing the probability that she would lose her mental faculties.
Calixto knew the importance of receiving the Sacraments at the onset
of the illness. Teresita squeezed his hand to show that she understood.
Sister Maria Teresa confidently stated that there was
nothing more that she should like than to receive the Last
Sacraments. Reverend Mother Dolores Castell then stepped into the room
and addressed Sister Maria Teresa of Jesus, telling her she was going
to take her Holy Vows that day and would then become a professed
Sister. Teresita received this news with peace and happiness and
interiorly made preparations for the spiritual weapons that would
sorely be needed along the last steps of the difficult road that lay
before her. The Community was gathered to attend the Profession
ceremony. The invalid's voice rang out confidently and joyfully when
she pronounced her vows. Father Muzquiz recommended that Teresita
offer the sacrifice of her life and all her sufferings for Pope Pius
XII's Holy Year's intentions. "That should make me Our Holy Father's
special child," she replied. From her sick bed, she joined the
Benediction of the Blessed Sacrament in the chapel that concluded the
Profession ceremony. Reverend Mother sat close by her bed and
observed her closely for quite some time. "She remained for a long
time with her eyes closed with an unforgettable expression of rapture
on her face . . . It was something holy and indefinable that reminded
me of the virgins, Agnes, Cecilia and Therese." Armed with the Church's
weapons for the final battle, Hermanita Teresita was prepared to meet
her Bridegroom.
Teresita's aunt, Mother Carmen, came in to say good-bye to her beloved
niece before she went back to the academy. Teresita confided that her
greatest comfort at this time of trial was her devotion to Our Lady
and asked her to tell the Sodalists that one of them would have to take
her place in the novitiate. It was a sad farewell to the aunt she
loved so much and who had helped bring her to the feet of Our Lady. The
mother of Sister Maria Teresa was not faring as well as her father
under the burden of the impending separation from their daughter.
Teresita disclosed to her father that her mother would grieve only
until she reached Heaven and then she would be completely resigned.
This prediction was fulfilled.
The headaches became continuous and violent, accompanied by nausea,
and
loss of appetite. Teresita endured everything heroically and only
occasionally a silent tear manifested itself. The only relief that
could be
given for her pain was more pain in the form of spinal taps. Within two
months she received this treatment sixty times. At times the
headaches became so unbearable that she admitted to her father that
she feared she would lose her sanity. She told her fellow Sisters, "If
God wants it, then I want it too. If I lose my mind, remind me often of
my Vows, whisper a prayer to the Madonna, such as: 'Mother, may the one
who looks at me, see you' or 'Mother, teach me to love Jesus.' "
Holy Week that year was one of intense suffering. She truly began her
Passion. She received Our Lord for the last time on Holy Thursday, the
day on which Our Lord had given us His Sacred Body and Blood to be
our spiritual food. Extreme pain set in and caused her to go in and out
of consciousness. "Jesus . . . Madrecita! . . . Mother cover my life
with your
mantle . . . love . . . The more we love God, the more we would want to
love
Him . . . Lord, Lord . . . send workers into the fields . . . into your
vineyard . . . many workers . . . the harvest is great but the workers
are
few."
Sister Maria Teresa had her mind focused on God even when her mind
wandered. Good Friday came and still her sufferings increased. The
Devil knew he did not have much time and also added to her suffering.
She could be heard saying, "Go away from me . . . Begone Satan! Go back
to
Hell . . . Defend me, O Mary, defend me against the snares of the
Devil." She quoted Saint Bonaventure, "Those who constantly invoke
the name of Mary need not fear the hour of death because at the sound
of her name the infernal spirits flee terrified."
"For Him Alone Have I Lived!"
It was Holy Saturday, April 8, 1950. Sister Maria Teresa's father
kept
vigil with her while the community was at Mass. He kissed her forehead,
but she made no sign of recognition and seemed incoherent. Toward
evening, the prayers for the dying were said aloud and her only
response was a very quiet, "Pray for me." Reverend Mother was present
and she feared that the prayers had exhausted her and she told Teresita
that they would then be leaving to allow her to rest. The dying Sister
reached out to open Mother's prayer book, indicating to her to continue
with the prayers. When a message came that there was a phone
call for Mother, Teresita held out her arms to indicate that she did
not want her to leave, and begged for a blessing. The community left
the room, and Mother Carmen whispered to her, "You love Our Lord very
much!" and Teresita answered, "For Him alone have I lived." At 10:45
that
night, there was a painful cry from Teresita, and Mother Carmen and the
others near her began to whisper prayers to assist her. Suddenly she
cried with a loud voice, "My Mother Mary, come for me. Bring me back to
Heaven with you!" Again the community was summoned and filed in
quietly, and sorrowfully beside her. Reverend Mother made one last plea
to their foundress, Saint Joaquina de Vedruna, for a miracle, putting
her relic on Teresita. Teresita held the reliquary tightly in her
hands, and suddenly looked upwards, smiled, and exclaimed, "How
beautiful! O Mary, how beautiful you are!" Her hands then fell loosely
to her sides with her lips moving in silent prayer. Reverend Mother
held the crucifix for her to kiss, which she did reverently several
times. Then Mother held up Teresita's favorite picture of Our Lady
for her to see. Sister Maria Teresa gazed lovingly, silently. There was
a deep sigh. Then she lay very still and motionless. Our Lady had come
for her.
In 1954, the beatification process was begun and on June 9, 1983,
during
the Holy Year of Redemption, Pope John Paul II declared Sister Maria
Teresa Gonzalez-Quevedo y Cadarso "heroic in her virtues" and
consequently given the title Venerable.
What we see reflected in this beautiful modern-day flower of sanctity
is hope. Though we live in corrupt and amoral times, sanctity is within
our reach. Our Lord said, "Be ye perfect as your heavenly Father is
perfect." Jesus wants us to be Saints. There are great sanctifying
tools that lie before us: The family, the critical unit wherein parents
can nurture and foster holiness by their own example and guidance, is
our challenge for sanctity. The second tool of sanctifying potential is
the quickly disappearing, genuinely Catholic school, which provides not
only academics, but spirituality and morality according to Holy Mother
the Church's teachings. Above all, however, is
the sanctifying tool of devotion to Our Blessed Lady. Let us crusade to
bring back the Holy Land of our families and our Catholic schools and
let us do this under the most noble of all banners, Our Lady. Let us
pray to Venerable Teresita to assist us. Her secret was Mary. May it
quickly become ours too.
We chose the flowers of roses for their heavenly fragrance, and
sweet-peas, because as
children we strew them on the path as we sang to Mary during the May
procession around the parish church. O that those sweet spring days
were once more repeated in glad rejoicing for God's love for us by
giving us His Most Beautiful, Most Fair Mother as our own . . .
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